Will I Ever Get Over This Rape? I'm Depressed Right Now Please Help.?
Long story short: I was raped and given an STD by the attacker. At the time I didn’t have health insurance so I went to a local low-income clinic for low-cost STD care. The nurse told me she had a treatment called "TCA" that would clear my STD (genital warts). She poured the "treatment" all over my genitalia and it was excruciating pain. However, she assured me that the pain was normal. Afterwards she put a layer of a sexual lubricant over it and told me I was all set. I later learned that TCA stands for trichloroacetic acid, which is a powerful acid in 85% concentration. The acid was supposed to be put only on the warts, and sparringly, meaning only a small area of the wart, as acid naturally runs Well, she misunderstood completely the nature of the procedurea and poured acid all over my genitals.
I had reconstructive surgery and it helped somewhat. I want to have more surgeries but I don’t have money (I’m in college so I don’t have money).
I hate the silver color….I hate the loose, hanging burned skin. It reminds me what the rapist did to me. How can I ever forget this???????? Is it bad that I’m jealous of other rape victims that I encounter because 99% of the time they haven’t suffered disfigured genitalia from the rape?
I keep blaming myself for going to that stupid clinic. My new dr. said to me "You get what you pay for". I feel so stupid for thinking I could get decent care..
Please help me. what do I do? I had phone counseling through the YWCA but the cousnelor made me feel horrible because she asked me if I was sure that I got the STD from the attacker. She knew absolutely nothing about me, only that I told her that I was raped and was depressed that I got an STD from it. It makes me depressed when I have to get defensive and then explain to how how it is physically impossible for me to have gotten it anywhere else. She kept asking "Are you sure you didn’t have any sexual partners after the rape?" I kept saying no and she ketp asking "are you sure"
I feel like crap. please help. how do i ever get over this?????
genital warts removed, now bleeding..?
so, on friday morning i went to the OBGYN and had the acid put on the warts.. it hurt really bad. so i went home, and washed it off like he said. then, that night i had sex… and the warts started coming off. and today, they were gone..but i’m bleeding where they were, and it burns when i urinate, is that normal?
